Lo Siento.

I am fighting my way through the war you started
Because you were jealous.

I am clawing my way to the surface,
Just to breathe.
You're suffocating me with your rules.

I gnash my teeth and spread my wings
In hopes that you will stop treating me like shit.
And be scared of me for once.

It's about time I made my peace with this.
It's about time I let go.

I was defenseless, I was a child.
No human being deserves those memories.

It was abuse in the simplest meaning of the word,
Even though you had us convinced it wasn't.
Even though you had us convinced we deserved it,
Like we had done something wrong.

You aren't supposed to hit children like that.
Except you did.

All that said, I have forgiven you a long time ago.
I also forgave myself.
I realized that there was nothing to be done at the time,
I stopped blaming anyone but you.

I concluded that it must have happened for a reason,
If only to make me numb.

Stuff like this is what makes people stop believing in God.
But I couldn't, even if I tried.
I am confident I wouldn't have made it without him.